today was my first day of work...i thought i was going in as a mold designer....but due my e-mail glitch...i never got my offer letter...so when i saw my offer letter today that said CNC operator i was shocked....i was dress as a designer ready to work in a office then i found out that i was really working in the shop...lol...i think i am still feeling the after shock...
i have this weird feeling today....it feels like something didn't match up....i was looking at both job and was very interested in both....yes when i thought i got one but actually got another i felt weird.....lol....to be honest...when i got hired as a designer i was hoping to get shop experience....now that i am in the shop i wanted to work at a computer doing design work...how contradicting.....is better to start in the shop anyways....
why see things so clearly...not everything needs to be so defined sometime....if seeking definition causes the overlooking of what's important....is definition important?
I think i am starting to see that i am more a designer then a tool and die maker.....i am still very much attracted to design....but on a more technical level....where is the perfect job of working on a design and making the prototype for myself?
To do list...
Rebuild Resume Rebuild Portfolio Rebuild Website ....find a job
have i forget how to rest and take things easy....i am so used to be having things NOW that i can't wait for anything anymore....1 week after i finish school and i am already frustrated about no replies.....maybe i had it way to easy for the past 2 years.....always getting a job after first interview....always having everything happening now......that i lost my patients....always go go go...stay busy...that's what happen since i graduated....i am starting to hate the feeling of having nothing to look forward to when i wake up in the morning...
在所有的雨中，淋濕我的那一滴，才是真的雨.....when will a rain drop hits me....
there is one week left in school.....and the feeling is very weird....not really excited at all.....i like the program a lot.....and it makes me sad to see that they are letting of the part time faculty...the program really suffers with the economy....people are not hiring tool and die makers anymore....just like when i graduated from industrial design...lol....always picking the unknown subjects to study.....
i still havn't figured out what i want to do yet....the constant battle of design vs machining continues to bugs me a lot....that's maybe why i am so lazy this term.....my marks are no where need perfect this term...slacking off and not caring has been the highlight of this term.....my die is almost finish....barely any time left....just one more piece to make before going in to the press.......making this die has made me realize how much work has gone in just to make a single part.....it would be nice to make dies to make coins...lol....
The last 2 weeks been insane fun....totally not thinking about school....thinking about rafting and NYC...which was amazing to say the least....
